I have just pulled my head out of my own arse,long enough to experience some of the finest reading i have experienced since those heady days of reading 'lord of the rings' under the duvet as a child. I started from a good point of reference and just went from one class blog to another.
I have a confession to make....
I have been going around and again in the same small circle for so long now that my mind has partially closed off. Maybe from the dizziness of ignorant bliss or from some self convinced deceit?? I have no idea why. But to find such exciting minds at work,and just a click away too....I am tingling with excitement :-) I feel like a child who has found some colourful crayons,now i am progressing to new heights of psychedelic wonderments. I have laughed out loud at the quick wit of a mind working at breakneck speed. Also i marvel at a woman of such broad minded sense coupled with great diverse humor, that it makes me wonder,what am i doing wrong? Ok i am partially fuelled by a taste bud tantalising red wine,but i truely feel inspiration surging through my fingertips.
In the last few months i have been progressing on a journey of self dicovery,the likes of which i have not experienced for what feels like...well save the cliches,an eon. Ok ok,not quite a that long but something not so far off it :-) I have found to my utter surprise,that i am the kind of man i have always wanted to be.
I have the strength of character to say no to something on principle.I would comment that'even when it is against the strongest of personal desire' but this of course is the acid test of such character. I am so chuffed,I used to consider myself so weak in character!!
To continue (i always digress whilst experiencing such a freeflow of conscious thought),I am always intrigued by the maverick mind or the rebel yell. Since childhood i love to feel like i excel. Or better still to surround my self with minds that prod and cajole my inferior thought patterns to more efficient or creative ends.I would like to think of myself as part japanese and part irish.In truth i am part linconlshire lad (flat cap an all) and part watford town hoon. Yes i know a great climb down from such lofty idealism but occasionally reality is the kick up the arse required to carry out day to day existence.
Well the usual dribble i suppose :-) I just do not live a life so full of such diversity. I do not want to imply that my friends are nothing special or that sort of thing,they are the bedrock of my life. I only mean to say i am ordinary. We all look around us and fancy a bit of the grass from that pasture over there....you know,the one with the really succulent broad leafed blades :-) I do lots of things but sometimes i feel like i am just passing time!?# What am i talking about now???
Time to put the brakes on i think....
farewell me old muckers,till next my fingers twitch xx