A ponderous morning for me. My heart beating hard and slow as i consider what i have done to myself.... I am a great big stupid fool!! My habit of being impulsive and making oversized kind getsures just keeps getting me into emmotional quicksand.
Is this my solitude talking or my desire,i do not know. I am wrangling with the desire to please others and the very real need to please myself. The one which always wins through is winning through again :-( Just open my mouth and say something direct? No more beating about the bush? If only i was such a beast :-)

A bloody great big soft headed fool ! Friend to all and lover of none !
Why wh why why why?