Mundane morning spent just wanting something .....well i am unsure what ! No one on-line. No inspiration,just flatness and ordinary space around.Just recently had an emotional clear out,a garage sale of sorts :-)
Telling truths to lighten my load. Left me cleansed and robust. I am making my way back to full strength and i feel great.
I think that maybe just settling for secondary will be acceptable over time and even be reversed. It no longer hurts. It no longer chafes at my sensibilities. I no longer feel the gut gnawing's of certain oblivion or even the tussle of morality with desire. It has been a long and painful road but,I mean,come on....who am i?
Wishes are just exactly that. Dreams that we all share at some time,we all chase for some time. Then we settle for just a slice of them. Just a crumb of one of them.The lucky few are silent in their success for fear of loss or theft. But i can see them. As i know their smiles,for just a short while i wore the same smile. It shone through my grey and dreary days. But i lost my dreams to folly as a fool deserves to.
So i sit and wait for new dreams to be conjured from this grey grey day..........